Happy Birthday!

Luke 2:9-11
9 An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified. 10 But the angel said to them, "Do not be afraid. I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people. 11 Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord.

Haunting my mind...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w4-JqIlrTSc

Santa have you seen my soldier,
the one who wears my heart,
we're so far apart.

Santa have you seen my soldier,
braving through the lonely nights

just getting by, living prayer to prayer.

It's so hard to be apart this time of year,

the ones you love should be near.

Material things lose all their value,

cause all I want is him.

Santa have you seen my soldier,

let him know that I miss him and I love him so, love him so.

Santa bring my soldier home,

I need him here in my arms,

cause love's worth fighting for.

Santa bring him home.

Santa bring him home.

Life's not the same without my soldier,

every time we laughed the comfort that it had.

Oh, he's the one that's been there for me all along,

he taught me to be strong enough when times are tough,

and keep the faith when I can't hold on.

It's so hard to be apart this time of year,

the ones you love should be near.

Material things lose all their value,

cause all I want is him.

Santa have you seen my soldier,

let him know that I miss him and I love him so, love him so.

Santa bring my soldier home,

I need him here in my arms,

cause love's worth fighting for.

Santa bring him home.

The wind blows so cold, without your hand to hold.

It's haunting my mind, like the day we said goodbye

There's a boy overseas

Who's lonely just like me

Waiting for the day

my hero comes home to me.

Send my love, send my love, send my love, love,

Send my love, send my love, send my love, love,

Send my, send my love love

Santa have you seen my soldier,

let him know that I miss him and I love him so, love him so.

(Send my love, send my love, send my love, love, )

Santa bring my soldier home,

I need him here in my arms, cause love's worth fighting for.

Santa bring him home.

(Love, love, send my love.....)

So, I'm not going to lie. I feel like a year ago I would have really had an issue with this song. I would have thought that it sounded whiny. I would have probably told the people in the song to suck it up and move on because there is nothing you can do about it.

This time of year, there is so much recognition to the troops that are sent over seas that can't make it home. In reality, there really is nothing you can do about it, but now I think I see another side. Even if this song sounds like many women complaining about how they can't get their man back, I feel like they have the right to complain. Regardless of where you stand on the issue of war, the fact is that it exists. The fact is that there are people working really hard for our country and risking their lives for us. I'm not the biggest fan of war, but I do think that even if you don't support it, you should support the troops and their families because it has to be extremely hard for them to not see each other--especially the children.

I know it's going to be hard when you leave,

but I am here to support you one hundred percent.

As much as I am going to hate having to deal with this,

I want you to know that I love you and I am here for you always.

I want you to be happy with the decisions you are making.

I already know I am going to miss you like crazy.

You're one of my very best friends.

<3

Movie.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E3nA9AG1AWk

Yeah...I want to see it.

Iris.

I can't believe one person can make you re-think so many things about what you are and what you think. I'm not saying this is a bad thing at all, it's just crazy to me. The whole going back and forth on love thing is really getting annoying. I wish I could just know what I think about it and the more I'm with him the more my mind goes in the opposite direction than it has in the past. I have actually been pretty happy and it is the weirdest thing to feel like someone cares about me. In fact, it's hard to let someone care about me. I know that might sounds weird but I feel like someone just has to tear my guard down sometimes to get to me. I wish I could just let people care. I think I have spent so much time building up my defense wall that I can't even get past it. I am trying really hard to let him in more and more. I want to let people care. More than anything. As much as I am scared shitless when people care, I feel more safe than I have ever felt since my dad died.

"And I don't want the world to see me, cause I don't think that they'd understand. When everything's made to be broken, I just want you to know WHO I AM"

love you.

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This weekend for Thanksgiving I went to visit Julianne in Tennessee. As much as it did not feel like Thanksgiving, it was really nice to get away from everything that is Webster Groves. We just chilled out and caught up. We watched so many movies it wasn't even funny. She made me watch Twilight and then drug me to see New Moon. Which I will admit really wasn't as bad as I thought it would be and I defintely enjoyed going. Robert Pattinson and Taylor Laughter and their sexyness really made the movie. lol :) I was also introduced to Charlie Bartlett and Ellen Degeneres stand up comedy. ELLEN. IS. SO. FUNNY. She is so right about so many things. We walked around Knoxville a bit and walked around Market Square which is super cute--especially with all of the Christmas stuff going around. I also inherited some money with Michael Jackson's face on it and it talked about God and your eternity on the back. haha. Anyways, I am really happy that I got to go this weekend. I feel refreshed and more accepting about having to work my ass off for the rest of the semester. :)

In other news:
WEBSTER WON STATE!!!! 31-14! KICK. ASS. Whoohoo!

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I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

Life

This is the moment

It's on the line

Which way you're gonna fall

In the middle

Between wrong and right

But you know afterall



It's your life

Whatcha gonna do

The world is watching you

Everyday the choices you make

Say what you are

and who your heart beats for

Its an open door



It's your life

Are you who you

Always said you would be

With a sinking feeling in your chest

Always waiting

On someone else to fix you

Tell me when do you forget



It's your life

Whatcha gonna do

The world is watching you

Everyday the choices you make

Say what you are

and who your heart beats for

Its an open door



You can live the way you believe

This is your opportunity

To let your life be one that lights the way



Francesca Battistelli - It's Your Life

Confusion

Yeah so, you know that whole "love" thing I have posted about in the past. I think it is now confusing me more than ever. I guess I should just accept the fact that it always will and whether I believe in it or not I should just have some fun and think about it minimally.

Oh, by the way, tonight was pretty good. I'm not gonna lie. The DJ sucked, but whatevs. Afterwards was prettty much amazing too. :]

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am